the final countdown

Closure

True love.

lifeless eyes.

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Everything

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Not sure if you'll read this.

It's always sunny in philadelphia really is a great show.

Im a character, Not a human being
I don't have a lifeline, I don't have a timeline
I'll keep living even when I die
I'll keep loving even when It dies


The world has been broken
And all that is left are the chosen
We must gather all the ones that misses
We must put together all the pieces

see those lines like scars of my body
As I see them in my head, I will show you the lifeless monster you've created
And I will wear those tales on my arms
So that never my story is forgotten

Your words speak of truth
And your body of lust
Lost love and lost hope
Lust in a world lost in transition

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out

I'll keep running forever
I wont let life and reality catch up to me
I won't stop until it's all over
Keep running, Keep chasing, Keep dreaming
Until the morning comes and life comes undone

Message from my swollen heart

"Jayp, stop being a fuckin pethetic moron and start working out alot and taking care of yourself, you look like shit"


I miss being healthy haha.
Looking at pictures from a couple of months back, I miss my tanned, cleaned shaved healthy self hahaha

Love was enough.

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you know what I wanna do?

I wanna talk to samson, fly me to the moon like that bitch Alice Cramson, cuz it's hard being young, black, and gifted, sometmes i wanna throw it all down and get lifted

Weird

I haven't looked this cleaned up in so long haha.


im sitting here wearing a suit, with my gold ring, hair all nice, smelling Dior good.

It's weird not looking like a bad nikki sixx ripoff hahaha.
Different but good, not sure I'm looking forward going through this every day though.

What?

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Obsession of the week

Cannot stop listenning to SIA, she is such an amazing son writter.

Favorite track: You have been loved

kudos to IMDB.com (a beautiful mind)

I watched the movie a beautiful mind again last night, it had been a couple of years since I've seen it
and I must say I hadn't thought much of it last time I did but this time I realized just how amazing this movie is.
The acting is phenomenal, the plot is original and funny yet nerdy.

I don't have much to say about it, but it's deffinatly a movie worth watching.
I'm usually all about movies like garden state and nick&norah's infinite playlist but that's deffinatly a classic, they put such a crazy twist in a romantic comedy that makes it one of the most dramatic movies of the last fifteen years.

my favorite part has to be the cheesiest one aswell, cause I'm a sucker for those romantic parts haha,
The speach at the end when he wins the Nobel prize for his Equilibrium

"What truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me to the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back. I have made the most important discovery of my career - the most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reason can be found. I am only here tonight because of you, You are the only reason I am. You are all my reasons. Thank you"

Bilingual

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The day I missed my party.

I am getting to a sick and pathetic point.
Today I decided that staying at home was probably the best thing to do.
Make some money, try and clean up abit, try and go forward, I have been standing still for long enough.
The last couple of months are a blurr, I barely remember anything.
It was what I needed, I needed to go back into my fantasy world, I needed the step back.
But i've been here for two weeks now and I think I can handle it, I have to.

Im a sad excuse for a man, and when things were starting to look up I obviously had to pull a JayP last night and ruin everything.
Get so fuckin drunk I get lost on the metro going to a place I've been to soo many times before.
Called the last person I shoulda called, The worst part is that I wouldn't be able to call again today cause I have no idea
what the number is / How I remembered it last night. Then getting in a fight with 5dudes at a random metro
I missed my own birthday party, missed gates's birthday. So many people were coming to see me
driving from far or just going out of their way to come say hi and party with me.

:)

The art of welcoming life back into life and blowing it two days later.

Way to go JayP!